Denji Log - March 2026

3/31/26 It's already the end of the month somehow. This month had more entries than the last one, I think. Also, I just lost what I was writing. Because of course. And I'm not about to retype all of that. So, here's a bulleted recap of what I was going to talk about.

Used an inhaler for the first time in over a decade because OMG I cannot breathe there is so much fucking pollen.
Planted more stuff. Need to get more soil.
Work has continued to be bullshit, but not quite as bad as before. However, since we're about to have a bunch of people leave and management changes, I'm pretty uneasy about where that might be going. I don't plan on working here longterm anyway, but I had planned to not leave until after I completed my Master's. That's still some months out. I've finally been working here for one year though, which was one of my goals when I started. I didn't want to leave until I hit that one year mark.
I'm planning on making that page about leaving the other job and all the bullshit before and after that event after I complete my Master's, since that was a factor in that. Everything will feel more "finished" once that's done. And that's gonna be a long, dumb page. Because I have to talk about that stupid grocery store/BB thing that is the most ridiculously stupid PTSD event of my life.
I am so fucking tired.
CSM fandom is still being overdramatic dorks about the ending. I am fully convinced at this point most of the whining about the ending and acting like Asa was some really, really interesting character and not just okayish compared to P1's cast is because so many of these dudes live vicariously through Dennis and they were wanting to see Dennis fuck Asa because they want to fuck Asa. You cannot convince me otherwise. Maybe there's some people that's not it, but it's at least 70% of the ones screaming about the ending and 100% of the ones who are complaining about every tweet Fujimotor posts that expresses him enjoying any moment of his life because WHAT ABOUT THE MANGA OMG HOW DARE YOU LIVE. The more I see this unhinged shit, the more my opinion of the ending increases because these people are disturbed. And I also personally like to put things in stuff just to troll people, so I fully support passive-aggressive author shenanigans anyway. A whole lotta dorks who ain't every made a damn thing anyone gave a fuck about bitching and moaning over Shonen Jump comics for 15 year olds.
How the fuck is one fourth of the year already over...
I'm still going to do a review of Dead Cat Movie 2. I just haven't had time.

ETA: OMG I went outside and saw the fattest raccoons I've ever seen in my life. Like almost perfectly round. How did they get so fat?!

3/29/26 Planted some seeds yesterday. Ran out of dirt. I have more on the way, but I'm going to need a lot more for what I have planned. I'll probably go out and get some more today. My passport book came yesterday. The card is still on the way. My wife's book hasn't come yet. I had to fill out my brothers form and scan his documents for him because he can't stop NEETing other people to do shit for him or it'll never get done. I'm paying for his passport card too. I hate the bad faith people on reddit being like "the passport card is only $30!!" It's definitely not that cost at the end, but aside from ID reason, that version only works for Canda and Mexico. You can't use that one abroad for any other countries. And if you need the other one, you gotta go through all that bullshit again. They're not just aesthetically different. But they're not $30. It's $30 plus $35 to process the application (literally more than the cost of the card) plus the cost of the passport photos (lowest cost will be by the post office for first time applicant, digital applications where you cna use your phone are only for renewals and still reject nearly all phone photos anyway, trust me I've been through this process with a lot of people) with the low end of that being $15, plus your long form birth certificate which if you don't have that version you're talking another $35 plus shipping to get (my brother only had his short form version), plus the money order fee if you pay with a debit card so another $3, or you can choose to do debit for a pay of it and check for the other part (yes, this is how it works in the US, one portion of this process must be done by check). My parents at least paid for the birth certificate and really they're the ones who lost the long form in the first place being idiots. A lot of people actually do not have their long form birth certificate in the US. I work in a job where I handle loads of personal documents like this and this is one of them, and you'd be surprised how many people don't and the ones who do have them in very, very poor (basically unacceptable) quality. I have to tell people their birth certificates aren't good enough all the time, much as I don't want to. But it's just what it is. Some don't have them at all, for a variety of reasons and have somehow skirted by in life for a long time without needing to get one. When people talk about needing a pssport to vote as a poll tax, and people quip back it's only $30, they know they are bullshitting. I sent my bro $90 for his stuff, though $83 will probably cover it all, just to be be safe. And my parents paid the $30+priority shipping (another $25) to get the birth certificate quickly. And let's be real, anyone ordering a birth certificate needs it quick, so unless they're near the county they were born in, they're going to need to priority ship that shit. So this whole affair of getting his "$30" card will have cost about $140. From my experience, the poorer someone is, the less likely they have all their documents in good condition or have lost them (due to things like homelessness, natural disasters as areas where those are more common generally have cheaper housing because of that, rough childhoods with terrible parents who didn't keep up with things, etc). People aren't taught how to manage these records properly either. They're often tucked away somewhere in a box or a safe, but folded into the tiniest of squares that causes them to be damaged despite being "safe". A lot of older generations would often do lots of photocopies of their kids birth certificates and never give their kids their real birth certificates when they hit adulthood. I see this with the current crop of parents too, and also with social secuity cards where the parents won't let even college aged kids have their social but get mad when they don't have it memorized...a card they never see. It's so bizarre. I had my birth certificate and social security card before my 18th birth day and had been filling out my intake paperwork for doctor offices and other forms for myself since at least 13-14 years old. It's kinda weird thinking on it, because my parents never made my brother do this stuff and I see most parents these days don't let their young adult children do shit for themselves either. But my same parents who didn't have my brother do shit for himself had me filling out insurance and medical information and expected me to have the names of all medicine I was allergic to and how to spell it memorized in middle school and I was changing my brother's diaper at age three and four. Of all the bullshit my parents did, I don't think those specific things were negative though. A kid shouldn't 100% take care of their younger sibling, but knowing how to change a diaper at a young age is a very useful skill to already have, especially if something happens to an adult and the child is stuck alone in an emergency situation until another adult can arrive. Kids should know how to diaper and bottle feed, IDK if that's a controversial opinion LOL. You should be able to fill out your own forms by middle school, definitely by high school. You should be responsible enough to handle keeping your social security card as a teenager. I feel like we've had a few generations of people getting more infantilized, and we kind of have to work with that framework in mind when we discuss this stuff. $140 is a lot of money, and a lot of effort for people. You typically need an appointment for this stuff too, and at least around me, almost no place will take a walk-in and they only take them during weekday midday of the few that do. Weekend hours are super limited. It's like the DMV. You are probably going to have to miss a day of work to even get this shit done. My brother is "lucky" that his NEETing through life means he doesn't need to worry about that, but again, the poorer someone is, the less likely they have a job where they can just take off, if they can even afford to miss a day. I know this is all know to the people who are pushing this. It's why they're pushing this, of course. It's just one of many tactics to make everything more bullshit so the wendigo crew can keep on eating up everything and everyone. Just venting really. As for my brother's NEETdom, I would say that's around 70% my parents fault, 30% my brother's. I feel like anyone who's dealt with NEETs and NEETs themselves know this shit started at the parents usually doing multiple failures usually starting in the teen years that the parents don't want to own up to and skirt by on not acknowledging it by being like "well, I'm still providing for them so they can't complain". Of course, once the parents die, then these made intentionally helpless adults are left to fend for themselves with little skills, an empty resume, and often an empty post-HS education experience (if they got through HS, most did not and have no GED). These kinds of parents will pay for their kids video games and "tendies" and complain the adult kid won't get a job, but they often won't pay for the jobless kid's GED, driving school (or bother to teach them themselves), psychiatric/therapy sessions (many have untreated mental illnesses or disabilities), show them how to open a bank account for a paycheck to, you know, go to, or even teach them how to cook or budget. They've made helpless adults by design. I opened my brother's bank account because I got tired of my parents not bothering to do that. My dad's life insurance plan also is only to leave money for my mom and my mom ain't got shit. So unless my dad dies first and my mom doesn't blow all her money and chooses to pass some on, only then would my brother have anything after they die. So they're not even planning on leaving him anything to live off of, as far as I can tell. It's kind of sick, honestly. And this story seems common amongst NEETs, who are usually boys for some reason. This behavior is usually done to teen boys, very often a younger sibling. I paid for my brother's state ID too, because they decided since he didn't go anywhere, he didn't need one. When I asked them how is he supposed to get a job without an ID or a bank account, they didn't care. Same with the GED, they won't pay for it. He's been out of school for so long he'd probably need a prep class just to pass it. They will not pay for that either. They say he should pay for it by getting a job, the thing he needs to help him...get a job. They never bought us vehicles are teens either. Technically, I had one intended for me, but when my parents finances went to shit, my truck got sold to the highest bidder, a classic truck inherited from my great-grandfather and promised to be. They needed money fast so they only sold it for like $2k. (Actually, just to be a little shit, I did some calculations and adjustments, the truck should've been worth about $24K in that time period and about $34K today, at least 20K on the low end since it wasn't as well kept as it should have been, I intended to do lots of restoration to it and customize it, which would've really shot up the value. The kind of work I wanted to do to this truck would've put it in the $70K range today. Alas.) I'm still salty about it. Like if anyone was gonna sell it, it should've been me and I certainly wouldn't have sold it so low. Like that price feels insulting to my great-grandfather, who had kept that truck in very good condition for decades. It was such a pretty blue color. My bro they hyped up they would get him a sports car one day and my dad even used to go look at car models with him about which one it might be, and just...never did bother getting him anything. Not even a hand me down car. Nothing. I think what really gets me though, is how much of my own potential was wasted for their bullshit. I wasn't allowed so many academic opportunities because "well, if you're brother can't do it, then you can't either" or they just wouldn't pay for things for me for school. And since my brother accomplished nothing academically and eventually dropped out of high school, this was the excuse they used the whole way through on why they couldn't invest more in my education. Wouldn't even buy me pencils and printer ink and paper half the time, but would scream at me if I didn't get an A on something. When I got my bachelor's degree much later than most because my parents would not sign anything related to college stuff when I was younger (I had to wait until I was considered an "independent adult" by FAFSA standards to actually start school), the reaction was "college is a scam" and if it was so great, your brother would've done it and since he hasn't gone to college, it's not meaningful. My brother of course cannot go to college because he dropped out of high school (my mom personally drove him there to help him get it done) and they won't pay for his GED. Because he should work to pay for that. This is all ultimately a financial bomb for me when they die. I may have to pay for his GED test in the end. There was a time he was on some psych meds, but they decided he didn't need them anymore because my dad doesn't want to pay for them so he's not on those and not seeing anyone anymore. Now that my brother has passed the age of 30 and still has nothing to show, the job options are getting really slim even with a GED and the social skills are gone. My dad got upset I was even getting him a passport at all because "he doesn't need one". Sorry, man, but unlike you, my brother and I are Latino. We're back to people asking for papers. My brother cannot not have paperwork to show who he is. Which is how my racist dad has wanted things, despite marrying a Latina. Tale as old as time, honestly. There's no denying my mestizo looks, lol. Had a conversation with a customer at work talking about how since her passport was expiring, she needed to turn in the old one to get the new one and she'll temporarily be without one and her white husband was panicking because he's terrified in the time between she'll be snatched up off the streets, but that's just how the passport process works when you're renewing. Not much she can do about it. Gotta have it, but gotta be without in the mean time. My dad is not sympathetic. He says I'm just "crazy" and that I don't "look Hispanic". (Whatever that means.) I do. Been harassed enough in my life to know I am not white enough to even be white passing despite genetically being mostly white. It is what it is. I don't get it as bad as some others, but damn, I mean, someone tried to run me over with a truck once while yelling racial slurs at me. It's enough. And most of what I get hurled at me is Latino-specific, with next being Native specific. Since childhood. I think it's interesting how I am perceived. I've only ever sometimes passed as white to black people, and only sometimes. To white people, hell no, Latino or "Indian". Northern NA, they know I'm "one of them", but "not from here", they can't place where exactly. Most Latinos know I'm Latino, but "not one of them". Puerto Ricans will beg me to accept I am Puerto Rican after asking if I am. (I am only slightly, even when I tell them this, they're like, "YES YOU ARE ONE OF US" and I'm like...not really? Not enough I would say so. But they insist.) Colombians ask me "Colombia or Panama?". Panamanians just look at me and say "You're Panamanian" and then the questions get much more specific. Some times people can pinpoint down to the exact area. Some smartass will probably yell at me that "Panama is a diverse place of many races" blah blah blah. We all know what everyone means when they say these things. They are picking up on the Native American parts, regardless of what the specific "blend" we're talking about. I'm tired of pretending it ain't about that. That's what they mean when they want to see people's papers. Latinos that will be targeted are gonna be targeted for their Native looks. It's more Native genocide, same as it ever was. Turtle Island is Abya Yala is Turtle Island. I know they've been harassing people with tribal affiliation here too and not accepting tribal IDs. The artificial distinction between these groups has just been for colonization reasons. The more we go further in time, the more I feel pretty comfortable calling myself Latino and indigenous. If I am enough to get yelled slurs and harassed over it regularly and I ain't even that far removed from relatives still living tribally, what is the reason not to? Even if the US racial classifications say I'm on paper not because "Indian" is a particular status here. Doesn't matter to a bigot. They got eyes. And my dad's gaslighting ain't gonna change the actual dangers of being here for a Latino. It's actually pretty disgusting that even these kinds of concerns are still not enough for my parents to consider getting my brother more official documents. My mom of course has her own passport. My dad is so against my brother having one he is refusing to get one himself and refusing to get a copy of his own birth certificate. I am sure he'll mostly be fine, since he's not Hispanic, though he might need that birth cert at some point for something. It was like pulling teeth to even get them to get him a birth certiicate. And only my mom would pay for it. My dad refused. I also worry about how my brother has no credit either. Just medical debt they let him rack up because they won't teach him how to process forms and they won't do them for him. He could have been debt free. I gave them the paperwork to make sure, due to his lack of income, he wouldn't owe anything. They refused to fill it out and submit it. He's about $50K in medical debt, debt they won't let him continue any treatments in either. I sent them cheap resources, but they will not take him there or pay. I've considered trying to budget in a way to pay for that stuff, but I am honestly don't have enough money to budget entirely for my own full medical needs. I'm already juggling my wife's psychiatric appointments plus mine and our meds and our cats' meds. I may just use my coming up Kemp bucks (lol) to pay for that damn GED, since that surplus thing passed as usual. Even if not to get straight ot a job, maybe online schooling to get back into having responsibilities and a schedule to keep up to. He's not incapable of doing schoolwork. My parents used to make me do his work for him whenever his grades would get really bad and the schools would start contacting my parents like hey what is going on (up until HS when they just stop caring), so he only coasted through elementary school and middle school off of my work. But I would tutor him in how to do stuff, and he could clearly do it. He's not illiterate or anything. Since the county stopped giving a fuck once he hit 9th grade, my parents just let him fail everything and play video games and told him he's a genius so he doesn't need school. He's not, lol, though he was allowed (despite his bad grades) to be tested for the gifted classes because I was tested as being "profoundly gifted" in every area they tested for at the time, so they assumed he might be and that was why he failing, that he wasn't being "stimulated" enough. He failed out of those classes immediately, though he did pass the tests. I later learned from one of my gifted teachers who did all the scoring for that that most people who are in those courses are not actually gifted. Their parents pay for them to get in, and they can bring in outside scores not verified by the school if they fail the main state test or have their parents pay enough so that even if they score badly, they still get in. She told me the average "gifted" kid didn't meet the scores needed (you only need a high score on one of the domains, not across the board), and most of the students were scoring 70% as their highest score with some only getting 50% on all tests (LITERALLY DEAD AVERAGE LOL). The percentages are supposed to represent the person's intelligence in that particular subject versus the average person. 50 is basically 100 IQ. Yes, I know IQ isn't the greatest metric, but it's not as "evil" and useless as far leftists pretend either, it's also used in a lot of disabilities services and court stuff, to make sure people with severe mental challenges are not being put in prison for things they can't even comprehend, or to ensure they get state resources. The gifted program itself started out of some cold war stuff, and there's a lot of woo woo in it, but the modern internet idea everyone in there had high functioning autism is bullshit lol. Most of them were just dead average, well off white kids. She said I was one of the only students she ever tested who legitimately fit the criteria and that I was already more intelligent than her in multiple domains at that point in time. I didn't really believe her, because that seemed nuts. (Not sure I fully believe her even now.) And she was definitely my most intelligent teacher I ever had, so really didn't make sense to me. But I know my brother actually passed this test, at least in one domain because we didn't have the ability to cheat our way in. Side note, I really, really hate how everything is labeled autism these days. It completely fucks with resources for actually autistic people. I don't really like the "gifted" label, (and hate more that people label this as being a book smarts thing, one of the domains is literally abstract thinking and creativity/art, not something most autistic people would score highly in above the average person and not booksmarts-related at all). I don't think there's a good word, beyond generally being under the vague neurodivergent umbrella, but "giftedness" ain't autism. Some people in that program probably were better with the other label, but honestly, almost no one in America ever fit that label of "gifted" in the first place. Most people's parents cheated them in, which is why most of them have imposter syndrome later or crash out. They were average and can't deal with it. My school district literally had a racial and income based quota to block certain groups from being in it or even being tested. I had to have six teachers sign off on allowing me the right to take the test, when normally you only needed two. (And the fact you need teachers to vouch for you instead of all kids being tested form the start should clue in there's bullshit afoot) Because "Latinos are inherently stupid". Literally the reason the school gave. They also stated I needed to be in the "profoundly gifted" range in one subject or they wouldn't let me in, requiring I'd be more "gifted" than the average gifted student. Oops. Of course, once I got in the school tried to make me fail out, straight up would go into my classes and take my assignments out of my teachers desks to try and make me fail classes, once tried to put me in an institution for being "crazy" (failed on that front too), tried to get me suspended from things, added fines to my account for things I was never involved in, and that was just a taste of it. They really didn't want me there. When they couldn't get me to fail out of honors classes in high school, they came up with "scheduling conflicts" that just erased all honors stuff from my schedule and put me in regular classes anyway in my senior year. I have no tolerance for people pretending any of the AP, Honors, Gifted shift is merit based. It ain't. If you manage to get in, you're there to pretend it ain't stacked, and they'll still try to push you out. Because that "proves" you didn't have the "merit" truly. I could make a whole page about just my experiences in that, but anyway. (Fun fact, most places don't even have these programs anymore because almost no kid is passing it at all, not even with the "curves" for rich kids, LOL and even by the time I took it, it had been nerfed from earlier decades. Modern tests don't distinguish the levels of giftedness anymore and have been made significantly easier to pass. No one is ranking as above the lowest rank of gifted anymore even with this dumbing down of the tests.) Anyway, I don't have autism. I have also been tested for that many times. I talked about that on the Confession Corner, IIRC and my mom's obsession with rainbow children nonsense. And I really do not relate to autistic people either, re:their struggles. I think there is something different there, some different wiring, but IDK if cerntering it around "smarts" has been useful for anyone. (The only reason I was pulled aside for this to start with was test scores and having a college reading level in fourth grade, so "smarts", but I definitely had other oddities about me compared to other kids.) ETA: Wanted to add this chart, cause it kinda makes it easier to understand what I mean re:neurodivergency. We share traits with autism, but there are distinct differences. Having read into academic literature, I'd say another big one here is, compared to both ADHD and autism, when hyperfocused on an interest, gifted people can actually very easily just put it down and fully drop focus to shift to something else without it causing any anxiety or meltdowns and it doesn't have to even be to another hyperfocus. Can just shift mindset on the fly between hyperfocus and non-hyperfocus, interest-focus and non-interest focus. The distruption of flow is not an issue, neither is loss of routine. Routine is basically irrelevant. There's more, but those were some big ones I noticed that I think could help the average person understand these are not the same divergency. Another is the social isolation often stems from lack of someone being interested in a topic to the same degree, which is similar to autism, but the way it is internally managed it different. Gifted people just tone down their discussion of the topic and shift it to being more "available" for the neurotypical person to attempt to the neurotypical person's emotional needs to not feel inferior or lost and don't really feel embarrassed about this due to the existential mind-focus. Autistic people often fail to pick up on them "overtalking" about a subject the other person is bored or feeling inferior over, or when they do notice, tend to shrink back and feel embarrassed or try to hide their interests instead. Even high masking to smooth over the conversation is different because this causes a lot of stress to the autistic person, but a gifted person is not stress by this. There is no internal struggle to "mask".

But anyway, he ain't that dumb. He's just not doing anything. Bro flunked out of Spanish. I'm like, how the fuck did you flunk out of Spanish??! YOU ARE HISPANIC. It's parent supported and promoted laziness. So much of NEETdom is parents not only supporting, but honestly intentionally creating these environments of non-discipline and helplessness. To be left, inevitably, to one of their other children to have to deal with when the parents are dead. Dunno how much is fixable after 30, TBH. We're not dealing with an uphill battle. It's an upmountain battle. Sometimes I feel like I'm Hank Hill trying to help Lucky. It should've never been allowed to get to this point.

3/25/26 CSM has ended. Final two chapters were okay to me, probably the best parts out of part 2 because part 2 just...wasn't really interesting past the first maybe quarter or so in the first place. But I have been amused at how juvenile some of the reactions to this are. So many in the fandom, east and west, really are just self-inserting as Denji, having this weird ass parasocial relationship with Denji and viewing whether he gets what they think should be his dreams (what they personally want) as some slight against their own selves. LOL, if Denji got laid finally, that wouldn't make you dorks not still virgins. The other thing I've seen a ton of comments in the west was an equally bizarre one that went something along the lines of "I invested so many YEARS into ~reading~ this manga, I bought STUFF, all for it to have a BAD ending I DON'T LIKE what was it all FOR how dare this manga BETRAY MY TIME". Bro, it's just manga. It's JUMP manga at that, which makes it even more ridiculous to moan about the ending. JUMP manga don't typically have good endings because JUMP is evil and destroys their own talent for profit and eventually it all implodes one way or another. It's been like this consistently for decades. You want many that's going to be more likely to have a good pace and a good ending? STOP READING SHONEN JUMP. Honestly, stop reading shonen period. Read completed series that are ten volumes or less. The fewer the volumes the better. I'm just so weirded out by how enmeshed some people are with this manga and, from what their more specific complaints are...I'm not fully convinced they even understood what they read in the first place. Which makes the whining all the weirder. Truly the fandom does indeed have a problem with the Reading Comprehension Devil. Anyway, Power's back. I'm happy. Legit when I read this yesterday on my break at work, I was texting my wife about Power. No fucks given about anything else. And I'm pretty fine with the ending, given what was in what part, as an ending for part 2. This has been the best writing for part 2 since the beginning of part 2. Everything in between that was pretty meh. None of it compared to part 1, at any point, but the ending got me Power back, so I'm fine. I'm kinda glad they didn't show Aki. I've seen people arguing what might have happened to Aki, and if he's still a devil hunter (I don't think he is) and with Himeno (ugh) or if his family is still alive (I think they are, personally), and us not seeing him means I can just write in whatever I want. Sorry, I hate Himeno. She was THE reason I put off getting into CSM for so long, specifically. Nasty creep. That shit with Denji was disgusting (I'm disturbed by how many people excuse this because she was drunk...she didn't give a fuck the next day when she was sober...) and her early behavior with Aki is also fucking creepy and gross. And I'm just gonna hate on anyone who pressures someone into smoking. Trash character with a good character design. If she wasn't absolute dogshit as a person, I'd say she's a 9/10 to me, but no. She's a 1 for me. The personality so overrides everything else I am actually repulsed by her character. I hate Makima, but I hate Himeno more. Makima is at least supposed to be a villain, so the fucked up behavior around Denji is part of the villain stuff. Himeno's just a disgusting fuck-up. I've met people like Himeno in real life. You couldn't pay me to hang out with people like that. I'm positive the only people who are fans of her 1) want to fuck her bc they don't care about anything else about her just her looks 2) women who want to self-insert with Himeno bc they think Aki is hot and there's no one else 3) slight crossover with group 2, but women who really hate BL trying to give the middle finger to AkiAngel shippers. Saw some posts from type 3 floating around. So weird. Visually, I really can't blame them. Aki (with his hair down) and Himeno (if I ignore her personality) are absolute each one of my types I tend to find attractive and combine that as a pair, I should be really into this. Like Zechs/Noin, just two hotties. But no. Himeno ruins it and Aki's dumbass has dumbass hair. Best thing Himeno ever did was when she cut that stupid thing off. That was the only moment I liked Himeno. For a brief moment, I could forget about everything else she did just because I wanted to see that stupid thing chopped off. Anyway, what the fuck was I talking about. Oh yeah, Himeno. No, I don't want to see her. I don't give a fuck if Aki is single, or with Angel Devil, or some rando man or woman. Just anyone but Himeno. Shit, this reminds me of that manager that had to go to rehab. She still ain't back. I don't think they'll let her come back but I heard she's in some outpatient thing now. She's got some overlapping personality shit with Himeno (not the creeping on teen boys part, as far as I know) and I don't really miss her or her random vodka bottles all over the place at work. See, that's another thing. You know, the rest of the Himeno haters may mean the grooming stuff, but no, I mean her entire personality drives me crazy. If I could put "type of personality in a woman that would repel me to the sun itself", it would just be Himeno. But then the visuals...that just makes it worse. Why hot when such a shit person? LOL. Honestly, now that I think about it, if Himeno was a man, I'd still hate her, but I think for a guy, there's a personality type that would drive me up the wall even more than this one. I know I've encountered that dude type in anime before, but I can't think of a specific character off the top of my head right now. Probably because when I do encounter that kind of dude, he's one of the leads and I just drop the show entirely. If Himeno stuck around for the whole run, I think I would've given up even with her not being one of the main focuses. Really just me eyerolling at Aki the whole time. I mean, easy sex, I guess. And her knowing him since he was underage...IDK, I can give him a bit of a pass, but bro, you can do better than that. Speaking of that, I remember I've run into quite a few CSM fans who argue there's no proof Aki slept with Himeno. I feel like you have to be a virgin and dense AF to think that. It's just so obvious. See, that's what I mean. This fandom has negative maturity. Can't even pick up on basic shit. They are literally Denji himself. Another thing was the "it's not OUR Denji/Power/Nayuta anymore because they don't REMEMBER they're a whole new PERSON WHAAAA". It's like it's their first time experiencing a parallel universe kind of thing. Which is weird because I'm pretty sure most of these people read Look Back. I personally loved that part. But I'm into that. I find it stupidly entertaining. It's a little magical. But the fandom seems so bogged down into debating "facts" and asinine shit in a manga about a chainsaw dude who road a shark into a tornado to fight a bomb lady. I'm convinced zoomers and gen alpha have such a problem with fixating on "IT NEEDS TO ALL MAKE LITERAL SENSE AND EVERYTHING MUST BE SPELLED OUT" because they suck ass at reading, collectively, as generational cohorts. They're nitpicking because they can't read any deeper than the lines literally on the page and then they get frustrated about it when it doesn't make sense in the way they decided it should. Of course, not every youngster has this problem, but I used to work in education. Most of them do, at least in the west. It's mostly their parents and "education" companies fucking up the education system and it's gonna bite them all in the ass one day. Wish I knew what to do to help them, but that system is too broke to even work within. All I can say is, if you're young and reading this and really, really upset about the ending of a manga, you have emotional regulation issues you need to work on. Breathe, it's not a big deal. Please, do not invest your life deeply in cheap entertainment. And please, read beyond shonen action. Please read beyond manga. I recommend reading books about how to read books. Yes, they exist and help you understand step by step how to read deeper into things properly. You will not get good advice on this in a fandom space. The curtains are not just blue 90% of the time. Also, Himeno sucks. Feel bad for Asa though. I thought her character was interesting, but she basically just got sidelined. Asa should've gotten her own manga, no Denji involved at all. All time favorite reaction is the bitching about whether or not CSM ending is as good as The Big Lebowski by 20 year olds who have definitely never seen The Big Lebowski just to shit on the CSM ending. But we could all take a lesson from The Big Lebowski, when it comes to everyone's feelings about the ending of CSM.

CSM aside, work has been bullshit. And now I'm going to work six days this week, because fuck me I guess. So many entitled people. And it's getting worse by the day. An old lady today, who actually made an appointment unlike most of the idiots, said, "I've been listening to what these people have been saying, and I don't mean to be rude, but I really wonder how any of these people do things in life. How do they have jobs and buy houses. They don't seem like there's much going on up there." Randomly namedropped Gloria Steinem too, which was a bit wild given the redneck area I live in. Wild. I really do wonder how so many people get by myself. So, so many people I've encountered at work and who I've worked with in the past are so painfully dumb I just can't even come to understand how the world must look to them. They must just be living constantly in rage and fear. But like, they could just...gain more knowledge and they don't seem interested in it. There's a certain degree of narcissim in ignorance. They either can't admit they're ignorant or they're too embarrassed to ask for help on how to learn. They're not embarrassed on making you do something for them though. So maybe there's some entitlement in their too. I mean, it makes sense. You look back in history, and rich lazy fucks literally had people wiping their asses for them. (Some rich people still practice this, from what ex-staff for rich fucks say after employment, which is unsurprising.) I guess it's all part of the package. I'm sure the shitty influencer wendigo shit doesn't make it any better for youngsters brains either. Really wish that analog idea would actually stick around. Come, let's listen to some Kitaro together. The Silver Cloud and the Silk Road albums have some nice ambient alien vibes to chill with. Disconnect and just exist. Oh, I watched The Life of Budori Gusuko yesterday. I already saw Dead Cat movie 1 (Night on the Galactic Raildroad) and I kinda have to be in the mood for it, but I like the vibe. I had never gotten around to watching Dead Cat Movie 2, because I always heard it wasn't as good and was kind of boring. It was alright. I might do an in-depth review when I have time. While it wasn't as good as movie 1, it was still alright. I'd say it was worth watching at least once. Reminded me a lot of really old books I read in elementary school. I kept getting the weirdest deja vu when watching the movie though, but I know I haven't seen it before. The movie is very kid friendly, and with cute cats in it, I absolutely am certain this is some person's childhood "was this a real movie or was this a fever dream" memory. You have normal stuff like dealing with famine and farming and volcanology, and then there's ayakashi and cloaked magical death cats and floating cats with floating balls of yarn making a net over trees. I can only imagine someone trying to piece together the plot of that movie from a vague, early childhood memory and being so confused lol.

Somehow, I'm still sick. Going on what? Nearly two months now? When will it end?!

3/22/26 Bought some gardening stuff. I'm going to try and do more with that this year compared to last year. But I have to sort out where I'm planting everything. There's a lot of shade on this property. Got a few more special seeds, this time from Bane's Best. If the order goes well, I'll add them to my links. The seeds and tea from Brenden should arrive tomorrow. Drying some orange peels for later. It's been a while since I bothered, but it's been a while since I've bought any oranges too. I should get more and steam them again. Despite all the stress of work, I've been mostly feeling alright over the weekend, but very nostalgic in a very sad kind of way. I had a dream last week that's been stuck in my mind. I should record it over in the dream journal. My medication makes it so I don't have much of any nightmares anymore, but it makes it harder for me to remember dreams in general. I kind of miss having a TV and just having it on in the background. I know when I last had a TV, I mostly just used it for soundscapes music or projecting YouTube or music on to it instead of using it like an actual TV. What I'm feeling nostalgic for is back when my parents had all the channels and I got NHK (not the "English" version, the actual Japanese version used to be included in some premium cable packs a loooong time ago) and I would just put that and The Weather Channel on in the background. Then it went away because the cable company decided to split all foreign channels out from their premium stuff and each foreign channel was an additional $20 PER MONTH PER CHANNEL but all the sports garbage was bundled in no matter what package you had. So that went away because there was no way I could justify to my parents, who speak no Japanese, that $20 extra for one channel was worth it. I also miss AZN, which had tons of Asian shows and films from multiple countries, and some Asian American stuff. But it eventually went away toward the end of when I was in high school. I remember discovering a bunch of interesting movies there and lots of music that I honestly can't find anymore. The programs we had On Demand sometimes had interesting Asian films, but it was very sparse and rarely changed. Eventually, I tried streaming services and it just was not the same. So much searching to try and find something. IDK. I preferred how TV was. I found a few services online that will stream live NHK broadcasts, but I'm not sure if I really care that much. I'm doing a trial on one of them to see if it's just a fleeting feeling, or if I'll actually enjoy it. I kind of miss having an actual TV to watch things on separate from my computer, but I don't really have much room for a TV (well, not the way TV's are now...tiny TVs seem to be a thing of the past...) and they're expensive. I don't play video games at all anymore, so that's another reason I don't have one. It's crazy to me. I used to have so many consoles. Now, I don't touch video games. I don't have any physical movie or series type media. Got rid of it all long ago and switched over to digital files. And I rarely download any of those kind anymore either. It feels like for several years, I tapped out of media entirely and just replaced it with mindless Youtube stuff, which just used to be where I'd watch old ass shit from TV you couldn't buy and dumb YT poops. I've tried to curate what I even view on YouTube. I used BlockTube very extensively to get rid of the majority of the garbage on YT to find stuff that's actually good but buried under all the algo shit. But what I find I enjoy watching on YouTube is just study with me, ambient videos (which have become ever increasingly hard to find that aren't shitty virtual environments or AI crap), and a few other things I know are really just brainrot. When I had moved on from the silly YT stuff in my early twenties, that's basically how it was then too until I got sucked into watching a lot of shit the algo would bombard me with. I feel like we all got hit with it and it's just been that way since. I've considered making a page on how to minimize this crap in your life. I'm not sure if switching to watching live TV is a part of that, but I do feel like buying music, physical or digital, and refusing to use music streaming is absolutely a part of it. Just looking into the history of how we got to shit like iHeartRadio, Pandora, and Spotify and how they work and what their actual goals are, are reason enough zero people should ever use them. I got some cassettes from Indonesia recently. They're not quite as good quality as ones I've got from some other countries (though quality in general has also been very label specific), but as I was listening to them, I was thinking about how I was just sitting there with one thing. One artist. I mean, mix tapes are cool and all, but I feel like people don't really sit with albums anymore and they're largely not made to be sat with. At least, mainstream music anyway. We're just being fed garbage designed with the idea that they know people will consume it even if it's garbage. Not even trying to make anything worthwhile. It's sad. I'm sure some idiot will be like "there's plenty of good music, if you know where to look, it's jus tnot mainstream". No shit, Sherlock. But the mainstream shit did not used to be anywhere near this bad. It used to be indie people could actually become mainstream without their daddies having millions in their bank accounts. People didn't need to do all this shit. Books used to be good, but they're shit now. TV is mostly shit, movies are mostly shit. Everything is made to be hyped and forgotten. Nothing has the lasting impact old things did. Fandom stuff could last decades, and now it's like on to the next thing of the season. Everything is sped up and means nothing. And hobbies aren't hobbies anymore. I despise Reddit and Tiktok and other social media (Tumblr included) for mostly ruining just general hobby communities. When things were back on LJ and forums, there was some drama, but shit was real. Everything's for attention and updoots and selling ads. You can't get anything useful out of anyone. Is this a bot? Is this just a nepo babby showing off how much money they have under the guise of needing "quality"? Is this an ad? Worthless. I visited the tea subreddit after not looking at it for probably nearly a decade and I wanted to set it on fire. If all social media died tomorrow, the world would immediately be a little better. But people are so addicted to it, and so many communities have already been killed because of it, there's nothing to go "back" to anymore. You have to rebuild everything because we allowed ourselves to be convinced to destroy our own spaces in favor of "centralized", more "convenient" ones.

3/16/26 Morning started off with thunder and lightning, then there was sleeting, then snow flurries, then hail, and then sun. What the fuck. Despite all this weird, nasty weather, I saw over 40 customers today. Would've been more if some of them didn't forget their documents. I don't remember much of the day at this point. It's funny because I almost called out today I felt so shit when I woke up. I can't even imagine what the chaos would've been like since I'm still a department of one at this building. Because no one else has bothered to get through the necessary steps but me. And, like last time, the person whow as closest is now leaving. Had a weird (Porky Minch) fan being creepy and aggressive today. I just ignored them. I've had a few of these who seem desperate and giddy to try and get a reaction out of being a disturbed asshole, but I never give them one. They're always women for some reason. Makes the men realize they'll be taken as more serious of a threat, so you don't see that shit unless they're really, really off. But it's always creepy when people will come up to you, gleeful and all up in your face telling you about how they enjoy someone else suffering and they're glad more suffering is coming, especially since I can tell by their comments they are directed this at me because they view I must be part of the group they are putting in danger. It's not surprising, given some of the historical books I've read. But damn, there is a whole chunk of the population that is, honestly, quite evil. But it's a particular flavor. They would expect you to cater to them and help them and be nice to them while they are directly being an asshole to you or subtle (or even aggressively) threatening your existence. What a weird way to live. Unrelated, but I am still somehow sick. Please, when will it end?

3/15/26 Finally got to the farmers market to buy real food. I've been so sick lately I haven't been cooking much. Which wouldn't normally be that big of a deal, but I'm not normally sick this long. Made a caprese sandwich earlier, going to make some chili+rice for dinner tonight+plenty for the next few days. Having a caesar salad RN with a ginder lemon boochie. I finished painting that one wall yesterday. On to the next phase of redoing the bedroom. Ordered some more stuff. Still going to need more paint for the door and probably for that window. Managed to get out for a walk finally. Haven't been on one for a while, mostly because of well, being sick. Ordered some special pepper seeds from Brenden. Looking forward to planting them and seeing what they end up like. I ordered Dragon Heart, Dreaming Swan, and St. Thomas Seasoning Pepper. Dreaming Swan is out of stock now. I think I might have gotten the last pack. Not looking forward to whatever bullshit is going on this week with the renovations and the managerial changes coming. Bleh.

3/14/26 Somehow, I am still sick with the same sick from nearly all of last month. It just won't go away. Ugh. Maybe by my next update I won't be sick. Maybe. I can't believe it's already halfway through March. This year is speeding by as fast as 2025 did. Some general updates:

Wife and I went to our passport appointment. So all that's dropped off and done.
Switched away from my daily+weekly planner to a monthly+blank journal for pseudo rapid logging/daily to do lists. I feel like I've been trying for years to make something more complicated work than anything I've ever really need. I don't think I'll end up going back to the weekly planner and I really doubt I'd go back to the daily one at all. Not sure what to do with them now, beyond possible scrap paper. IDK. I feel like everything but the most basic shit is overwhelming my brain.
Finally managed to get the Pure Moods cassette for cheap. I wanted to get it for the nostalgia/humor of it. And I like the cover out. I want the second one and Celtic Moods too, since those were the three we had in the house when I was a kid. But the cassettes are ridiculously overpriced. Another one of those "there is no reason this should be seen as rare, this was heavily mass manufactured" kind of thing, but expensive anyway. I got Enya's Book of Days single as well, which is one of the singles that had As Baile on it. I'm going to try to get more of her sigles. She has a lot of songs that never made it to any albums.
Building manager is transferring to a new building and our shitty district manager just got promoted and our shitty, smelly, bigoted manager in the building will be now the building manager. People are already talking about quitting, because even the sea of white dudes he hired literally hate his guts. He still hasn't found any new managers (and won't be hiring from within, of course). We're also already losing someone. This guy's so shitty, one employee is choosing to move back home as soon as the rent lease is up. I feel like at this company, the most encompetent morons are always failing upward. Wendigo nonsense.
We had someone from another building come to help us while someone was on vacation. Got a double shaming from some 40 year old lesbian about why don't I want tattoos everyone should have tattoos what's wrong with you alongside why don't you want kids everyone should have kids you'll want to have kids eventually you're weird if you don't want to reproduce and raise a child with your genetics. Lady had a high schooler who she had by a boyfriend when she was fresh out of high school, and only recently got married to a woman and they're already talking about getting themselves both knocked up. So she'll have a high schooler and two newborns at the same time. Those babies gonna be having grandparent aged parents when they graduate HS and their older sibling gonna be nearly parent age for them. Feel bad for the teenager. The lady definitely gave of "I just came out less than half a year ago and have made this my whole life now". She had a pride flag on like everything and kept bringing up how gay she was like every convesation. She came off so insecure and cringe. Also made me think of that thing someone said on Tumblr way back that a lot of newer LGBT people are just convervatives with gay hats. She definitely had that energy. I definitely snapped at her at some point because she was trying to tell me how to do my job. My position doesn't exist in her building. We're not in the same department. Also, while she was going off about me not wanting babies, the coworker most closely to me was someone who already had a vasectomy. Lady, you are not in good company right now LMAO. This behavior is gross regardless, but it feels extra gross to come from a queer person. You can't even naturally have kids with your wife, why are you of all people pushing this pressure on someone else? And she made it quite clear for her, she didn't mean adopting kids. Needing to have kids with your DNA, that's the only kids that matter. Maybe it's my background in working in education with kids from really rough home lives who've been in and out of the foster care system and passed around relatives, or my own past of being abused, but I really do not give a fuck about the idea of family=muh genetics. Fuck off. She also went on a long spiel about how married people need to wear wedding rings and how she finally got a really expensive one (wasn't actually expensive though? it was under $150...) because it was so wrong she'd been going on like two months after the wedding without having one. My wife and I don't wear wedding rings. Don't have them. I don't wear jewelry in general and neither does my wife. I swear this person could not be more irritating to me. Oh, and they were a Disney adult. Getting Pixar tattoos soon. I can only imagine the absolutely performative, bland ass wedding this lady had with lots of "needs" that must be done. Still do not regret having a court wedding on Halloween in comfortable jeans and a t-shirt with no rings and no kissing for a crowd. The dinosaur boy ring bearer and vampire group and Elsa flower girl was hilarious as well and having six couples in a circle all getting married at once with only some of them even having rings at all or bothering to kiss while others did, for just how surreal all of that was together. Only cost me $40.
Different customers this week demanding to be seen when I'm on my lunch break because they "have an appointment" and I'm making them wait wah...when their appointment is significantly later in time, already long past, or they did not in fact have any appointment at all. That lesbian lady encouraged that shit too. "This lady has been waiting over fifteen minutes". I don't care. Her appointment is in another fifteen minutes from now. Yesterday's was "this guy's been waiting over forty minutes". And? His appointment is in an hour. He is not getting priority over the people whose appointments are before him because he showed up earlier. Why is this such a hard concept for people? Your appointment is ar 2? But you're here at 10? I do not have to see you, unless no one else shows up. You are a walk-in. I don't even have to take walk-ins. I had to tell people accepting calls for me when I'm busy with appointments to STOP telling all these idiots to come in as walk-ins. There were a few days recently I had more walk-ins than appointments because so many people just stopped bothering to make an appointment. Which meant tons of time where there were long lines because all these walk-ins decided to come at the same time. That's the point of appointments. So that doesn't happen. I was fully booked yesterday and people were getting mad I wouldn't see them right before my lunch break because "it says online you take walk-ins". Do people not understand what a walk-in is? It means you will get seen AFTER appointments are taken care of IF there is any time left. Not you are guaranteed a spot ahead of appointments because first come, first serve. What would be the point of appointments then? I really don't get how these people function. At our passport appointment today, we got to do it a little early because even though our location has these booked for weeks out because of how busy they are, the person before us couldn't be assed to show up for their appointment. I swear people did not used to be this bad about this stuff. Is this a COVID thing or some kind of brain rot effect?
I'd been watching Knitting Cult Lady on and off for a while, because a lot of people recommend her. But something about her has always put me off about her. So I decided to do some digging, and yeah, it wasn't pretty. I recommend reading here and here. She is most definitely not a good person. I don't ever fully trust ex-cult members who make a big thing out of being in cult research anyway, because I find these people often are still, even decades later, defending their experiences rather than ever fully processing what happened to them and the harm they've usually caused to others (emphasis on the second half). KCL isn't the only one I side-eye with that. It's important to have people who have direct experience with these kinds of things involved in research, but it is just as important that people who do not also do to check if the people who do aren't, you know, missing something out of a traumatic response. Same reason mental health research should be headed by both people who've been diagnoses with disoders and people without, but I feel like some of the big ex-cult members involved in cult research have this attitude like only they could possibly get the "real truth" out about how it all works and there's "no way to undo this", because you know, they came from a cult background and they're not as healed as they think they are and are projected everything they felt onto other people. But all that aside, that's not even the full issue here. Legal name dropping someone you did something with sexually as a child, that doesn't seem to have been consensually, downplaying what you actually did, and then refusing to apologies about it to the person who was not okay with you name dropping them because "everyone did bad things". Straight up pulled the "I was a victim, so I don't need to apologize to people I also victimized" shit. Gross. Even just using someone's real name, that's already really fucked up to do without asking that person first. Just make up an alias. That she apparently has a pattern of attacking people in former cult groups for not kissing her ass and she's lied about her military history to make herself seem more accomplished than she is...oh boy. She's deleted a lot of this shit, but I think it's interesting I've been getting a lot of recs about her videos recently, but her doing all this shit is from 2024. One of this posts is from literally two years ago. Goes to show, deleting and keep posting really does work whenever you get revealed as a shitty person. Anyway, anti-rec there. Also, I'm gonna be mean about it, her books read like a standard issued ghostwriter slapped them together. I feel like I've read that exact same writing voice a thousand times in cheap memoirs and self-help books. Maybe they're not all ghost written, but they all have the same bland flavor to them. She also pulls some enlightened centrist bullshit from time to time and perpetuates the Burning Times myth, which always gets a massive eyeroll from me.
CSM drama. I don't really care what happens. I've already been through YYH, DB, Hex, and Primeval. I've long learned "canon ends wherever I decided it did" is the most peaceful solution for your mind. If we're at the end and it's not great, it's whatever, then Part 1 is the real "canon". If it continues, I guess we'll see where it goes. Not everything can be like YGO and end perfectly, and then get an extra ending that's even more perfect. CSM fans freak out too much about everything. It's always "this is the most amazing thing ever" or "this is the worst thing ever". It's like the whole fandom is just a bunch of Denjis in a room together. I'm too old for that shit.
Been watching David replay though the KH games. I don't play video games anymore and long stopped bothering with KH games, but it's been interesting looking at the games again with some distance. KH1 is alright, pretty well-rounded game for it's time with a good amount of depth. ReCoM is as amazing as I remember it being (though Riku side is clearly less developed than Sora's, gameplay wise). But man, KH2 is trash. Haha, it's like a bunch of ads for shit that were mildly relevent at exactly when it came out but not that important these days, it spends alot of time nerfing things from KH1 to replace it with newer, half-baked ideas, the Disney works are largely not good (Beast's Castle and Herc's stuff stand out as feeling actually well done), what the fuck was Atlantica, and there is way too little of the "villains" and Kairi and Riku in this game. Once you leave Roxas's stuff, it feels like so much of the game is just filler bullshit. The Disney stuff feels less integrated into the story than in KH1 and the boss fights also feel less connected. Then you get to end game and a string of boss fight after boss fight with villains we ultimately barely know much about. I felt like we got to know the ReCoM org members (sans maybe Marly) a lot better than the KH2 ones. It's also really weird how happy-go-lucky Sora is for most of the game while Riku is not only missing but Kairi is KIDNAPPED and there's just no urgency by Sora nor by the game itself to do anything about this. So weird, from a storytelling perspective.

I had some other things I wanted to mention, but I can't remember what they were. I'll update if I remember.

3/5/26 I'm still fucking sick. It's been at least three weeks of being sick now. I didn't do much last month in general because of that. Finally got around to archiving February's entries. Some highlights since my last update:

A kid came in earlier in the week asking if we were hiring eighteen year olds specifically. (OK?) Manager says yeah, there are some positions available, go to our official site and select our location to put in an application for the positions you're interested in and we'll probably call you within the week for an interview. The kid asks if we have a paper application. Manager says no, the company only does digital applications. The kid demands a paper application, makes a scene about how no one wants to give out paper applications anymore. Manager explains to the eighteen year old that no major corporation in the country will give him a paper application to fill out. He must fill out online. Kid raises his finger in the air and declares that he will not be working for us because we did not give him a paper application. He stomps out. Everyone laughs at this stupidity. Manager presumes he got the idea to do this on the internet. Kid comes back in a few days later with his mommy to buy stuff. She pays for his things. I started thinking about when I last saw a paper application. I think it was maybe eighteen years ago, and most companies had already stopped using them then. There is no point in that kids life when paper applications were the norm. LMAO.
The stinky manager (not the one above who never stinks) hires some more people. His new hires are both openly Christian to the point of one having Jesus tats and the other regularly wearing crosses to work and volunteering to work for Shit-fil-a. Yes, volunteering. People work at that place for free because they deem it "serving a greater good". For anyone who thinks the company ever turned over a "new leaf". They regularly "hire" volunteer minors to work unpaid and the primary way they push this is through churches being in alignment with their "message". Literal free child labor for FAST FOOD. FOR JESUS. Anyway. That kid was actually hired because of that specifically. So far, I've been tracking who the stink manager has hired. He's hired one white woman he wanted to fuck (she went to rehab), one black woman who was so Christian she hated Halloween and rebuked the holiday on the holiday who quit because he gave her bad hours, one latino who quit because he would not give him good hours ever, one black man who is actually more qualified than every person in his department but will not be paid as such, and a sea of underqualified white men who are, sans one, super Christiany, and only two of all the people he's hired not being smokers. IDEK how you find that many smokers. Is he asking it in the interview? Hey, do you smoke? Do you love Jesus? White and male? HIRED!!! He lets me see the resumes of the people he passes on. I'm pretty sure the one latino dude only even got in the door because his name was white sounding. Same with the two black people. Every time he sees an Asian or Hispanic sounding name, he dumps them straight in the trash, no matter how qualified. I just watch this all the time. I'm one of the more competent staff and I know this dude would have never hired me. It's so wild. It's a good thing I interviewed with someone else before he was here. He is so openly bigoted about every group you can think of, open (Porky Minch) guy. Very smelly. We tried giving him mints, but he won't use them or gum. His teeth are pure yellow and rotting. He usually smells like actual shit about half the time too. Just stinking up the place. I can smell him up to 16ft away. Not the smelliest guy I've ever met, but the smelliest people I've ever met have always been dudes. It's kinda embarrassing. Get some Old Spice at least, come on! Wash your ass and pits. And your teeth??! Hello?!! Why are there so many dudes who don't brush their teeth? Is it unmanly to have clean teeth? I'm still thinking about how this dude not only cost me a promotion and lost us our best employee, but that he's continued to try and fill this slot with white dudes who have no idea what the fuck they're doing. The previous dude was also white, but he had certs and shit, years of experience and was already training up other people. All out the window so we can fill it with the right kind of white dudes, I guess. Maybe he wasn't church-y enough for him. IDK. Oh, and we're missing stuff again, expensive stuff. Because stinky man has been giving out his keys to his cool white bros that don't have authorization for certain keys and now we don't really know who's been where to guess who might be the thief. Not smelly manager is pretty furious, but stinky doesn't care because he doesn't listen to women unless they're someone he'd want to fuck. Wrong kind of white woman for him. One time he admitted he edited (FILE TYPE) with black customers because theirs are "hard to see" because they're "too dark" to the point he's messed up (EQUIPMENT) three times now because he freaks out every time he has to be near black people when he (USES EQUIPMENT).
Stinky manager confessed that while he's all for (tar--) because (Porky Minch) wants them, it's really hurting business and everyone in the community. But we just have to grit through it. Because it's what (PM) wants. So it's what's best, but it's kinda bad and he really, really hates to admit this. And I'm just like...do you think I'm on your side? LOL.
Having watched one of the new hires he's decided is more "qualified" than me, I am now fully convinced what's on his resume that was related is definitely...at best really stretching the truth, if not an outright lie. Which wouldn't be anything new. Several of the "stellar" hires from stinky have been caught fudging or fabricating stuff on their resumes, and he appeared to be aware of that and didn't care because he just really, really wanted to hire them. One of those people was someone he knew outside of work, so I am now wondering if he knows some of these other people and he's instructing them on what bullshit to put on their resumes to get past the upper managers.
My desk/dresser combo started to fall apart out of the blue. The new desk and dresser are here and built. When I went to toss the old one, it literally diassembled itself as soon as I got it out the door. Which was very convenient, and hilarious. Wish it hadn't died though, but the new stuff is much nicer.

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