Archive - Icons - Previous 1/6/26 Called out today. I don't know how I made it through yesterday. I was up high trying to get something down and suddenly felt really dizzy. Then boom, fever and my whole body aching. It was like I lost all my strength at once. I had to come down and sit for a bit. I sat on and off throughout the shift. Thought I'd be fine for today, but come morning, I'm worse. I slept for a while during the day because I felt so weak and dizzy. When I woke up, I had a fever. Still have a fever. Can't concentrate. I tried writing for a bit. Don't want to sleep all day, because I don't want to be drowsy tomorrow too. We have some corporate visit tomorrow. Gross. Had a rude customer yesterday who camped out at my work zone while I was on break. "Signed in" on some of my papers that are not a sign in sheet. And got mad when I took someone else before her because "they were walk-ins too", but they were walk-ins with their documents filled out and she wanted me to sit there and fill out the documents with her. Normally, I don't even take walk-ins like that unless there's some special reason they can't do it themselves. I told her to fill out the information while I was seeing the other people. She was adamant she should get priority. And I'm like no, you're a walk-in and you don't have any paperwork. I technically don't even have to take you at all. It's fully up to me. She knew this because she was sent over from one of our other locations that has a strict no walk-in policy and was warned we may not take her at our location either. How fucking hard is it to just fill out some forms and schedule an appointment? In the end, I eventually got to her and then she revealed this wasn't even for her, it was for a worker of hers who didn't speak any English and she'd need to walk him through it to then tell me the information. And I'm like even more like why didn't you just do all this shit ahead of time? She also claimed we helped her do this form two days ago and did it "all for her last time". I'm currently the only person in our building who can process this stuff. I did not work two days ago. No one at the other locations works those hours either. She then claimed the other store did it for her, the one that does not allow walk-ins. So, just lying. I don't know where she really went, if she even had it done, but I'd never seen the woman before so it definitely wasn't at our building. Reminds me of that lady who claimed she had an appointment when she was really a walk-in. I have a list of my appointments for the day. I don't know why customers think I won't know they're not scheduled for an appointment. Same with the weird first come, first serve people vs appointments. "I was here first!" Yeah, and they have an appointment at this time. You getting here before them is irrelevant. You're not on the list. How do these people function at doctors and dental appointments? Yesterday, I stayed a little late even though I felt like shit to finish up something for another area since everyone was behind. As I was leaving, someone came in for an appointment twenty minutes late and was like "why can't I be seen". Cause I'm closed. Bye. I also hate these people: my appointment was tomorrow, but I was in town, so I figured I'd just go ahead and do it today. How about you just come during your appointment? Why is this so difficult for people? I've had a migraine for a solid twenty-four hours now and still going. Which is great with everything else my body is feeling right now. I've been getting those lovely cold chills on and off too since this morning. Really great time. Ugh. I've been downing liquids and some Emergen-C packets. I did eat a backed potato for breakfast and had some chicken for dinner. But I haven't really been wanting to eat anything. I should probably go into work tomorrow with a mask on. I hate wearing masks. But I'm pretty sure I'll still be contageous and I can't really miss tomorrow either. That's America for you. I do have the sick leave for it, but I can't call out during the corporate visit. I hope these symptoms don't last long. On the plus side, I don't have a stuffy nose. Usually, when I get all these other symptoms, it's that or a sore throat, or both. Just some light coughing every now and then. It's mostly the fever and the body aches and chills, and just general tiredness/drowsiness. My sense of taste is a little off though. But that's not really a big deal. I'm so tired. I don't want to go back to sleep already. 1/4/26 Got a better look at what the flippers were putting in across the street. They are, in fact, putting in shittier windows than the ones that were already there. They didn't get very far in the progress. Took most of the day to replace one window. They also seem to have bought two that are not the correct size to go anywhere on that house. Brilliant. Now, they could have paid a team to do all this measuring and getting it installed quickly. But the thing I've learned about flippers is they try to change houses by using as little money possible for the tasks their attempting to accomplish. So, they have a couple of people who are clearly not professionals and themselves trying to DIY this shit. Maybe they'll manage to get one more in today, LOL. For a while, and I don't know how this happened, but they had a bunch of cables exposed that would normally be buried underground and they just left that shit out and exposed for months. They were driving over the cables with their cars too. That's if these are the same set of flippers. I don't recognize the cars or people, so I think we are indeed on flipper set number three. That poor roof is so fucked. And there in sums up the flipper mindset. Changing out good windows with shittier windows while the roof is falling apart and cutting down flowering bushes and flowering trees to improve "curb appeal". I'm half convinced this is all some effort to, aside from shifting houses and back forth between rich people as "assets", for the "poors" to have to live in shittier houses by taking houses that were already not well kept and somehow renovating them to eb even worse than before,. It's like they've actively aged these houses an additional ten to twenty years of damages in the span of months or even one month. Flipping is the enshittification of housing. They want us living in shitholes and to make us pay top dollar for it until they can make us homeless and then arrest us to be slave labor. What a system. Their house is the biggest dull point on the street. It was so noticeable during Christmas because everyone else had lights out except this one house. Total darkness. The grass is dead and covered with straw. In Spring, everyone else has flowers. Except this house now. Even just losing those bushes up front makes it look so weird next to everyone else's houses. It's like the house itself is dead. A corpse sitting in the middle of everything. 1/3/26 Flippers across the street doing more work on the house. I expect it will, despite them already making it super ugly, somehow get even uglier. I'm not even sure if this is the same set of flippers. The house has gone through at least two flippers now without a real person living in it. I was sure they had left for a while now. So maybe this is a third owner flipping. They're changing out the windows now even though nothing was wrong with the windows before. The roof is totally fucked though and the siding, but they just left that unfixed. It's so bad you can tell how fucked it looks from the street. And is more obvious than before because one of their ways of "fixing" the property was cutting down every single tree, bush, and flower growing on the property and covering the yard with pine straw. They even cut into other people's property. I'm across the street, and one of their guys cut into one of our trees and killed a few branches on it and a portion of the grass and moss in our yard. They at some point was trying to go into one of the other neighbors yard to cut down an old tree about ten feet into that person's yard and only stopped when the neighbor went outside like "what the fuck are you doing in my yard?". Batshit stuff. I made a note of that company. Completely unethical shit. Some people will do anything for money. But I've heard of loads of people having issues with these tree removal companies straight up cutting trees either intentionally or accidentally in other people's yards outside of their actual client so much I don't trust any of those companies at all. But also, the absolute audacity of flippers to think they not only get to make their little plot ugly as fuck, but that they should have the right to fuck up adjacent lots too. Wendigo behavior, all of it. The first set of flippers put some shit in the house that absolutely fucked their foundation. (They did it to my home too, it was the same set of flippers fucking up multiple houses in the area with the same ugly ass design that also damaged the buildings.) It's so funny they do this shit. It's because they don't actually have 1) any design taste 2) brains to make sure things work 3) any concern over that anyway because these aren't spaces they see humans living in (either because they all intend to sell to other flippers passing property back and forth but also if a person finally lands in it as an owner or a renter, that's one of the poors, so not a "real" human anyway). The last house I was in had mold under all of the walls. They just painted over it with the thinnest, shittiest paint imagineable and the paint cracked and peeled immediately after a week of being there. It was originally owned by a Russian flipper who had never even once lived in the US who sold the property while we were still renting to a US rental company that gradually bought up nearly every house available in the area and increased rent every single year. When we left, we got a fee for repainting. In that neighborhood, the house right next to ours had a tree growing through the foundation that was also fucking up the plumbing and the company said it was the renter's responsibility to fix that. UM. WHAT. Why did you rent out a property with a TREE GROWING THROUGH IT?! That house had people constantly moving in and out when they'd eventually find out about what was going on under the house. Eventually, the roots busted through into places that were actually more visible to see and they actually paid to have some parts (but not all of it) fixed because that renter reported them to the city. I really need celebrity worshippers to understand those people do not think of you as human. You are the level of a rat to rich people. All the charity stuff is PR to avoid getting the system changed (and to move money around covertly). You have to be sub-human to rich people. If you weren't, it wouldn't be so easy to make "tough" business decisions that cost lives daily. We're nothing but numbers to be forgotten to them. They kill the planet by making loads of broken junk and inefficient shit, degrade valuable things as they pass them back and forth, and are quite comfortable convincing everyone at the collective bottom they should be excited about a portion of the bottom rung getting punished for not being rich because one day, you too could be rich or be noticed by a rich person. I wish all the dipshits would fuck off to their little bunkers. Maybe we could get things built back up again. Though with how people have been intentionally dumbed down, that'll be a bit of struggle at first. But there's enough people with big brains we'd make it through. They'd be dead in their bunkers within a year. I'll never forget one of my college history teachers saying, "We ask so little of our rich people" when he was discussing what ancient rich people had to do to not get their heads chopped off by the masses. Our current crop of rich people are so weird. Definitely makes me think of the French royalty before the revolution. Just weird ass, dumfucks fucking up everything. LOL I'm still not over learning about one of those weird kings being offended by people needing to pee but also getting offended if his guests didn't have a massive feast every time they hung out with him. People were just covertly pissing places whenever the king wasn't looking. Whole place smelled like piss and rotting meat and loud perfume and like opium or some shit. But hey everything was shiny. When you get to that level of absurdity of wealth, you get to this absurdity of person. Broken brains. Fully wendigo-minded at that point. There's nothing left but goop in there. People ask why do rich women get that ugly plastic surgery look because they look like shit afterwards. They don't care if they're beautiful. They care that everyone can see their faces look like that because of all the money they spent doing that. It's just to show off they're one of the rich people and to look like they're part of the club if they're not quite rich enough yet. I saw one of these women recently. She came in for an appointment. My god is that Mar-a-lago face absolutely far more terrifying in person. It was like I was talking to an actual alien because the uncanny value reaction was so strong. But that gets those women a place in rich land. The rich men don't care if their wives are pretty. Never have. That's what mistresses, exploited staff, escorts, and trafficking victims are for. Their wives are for other purposes. I was going to post something about CDs and cassettes today. I think I'll do that tomorrow. Maybe I'll edit this later with some other thoughts. 1/1/26 It's a new year. I moved the December entries to the archive section. It doesn't feel like a new year yet. Which is weird for me. Usually, most years already feel like the next year a month or two before it starts. This time, it feels like 2025 is still dragging on into 2026. Not liking that. I need to stop using this icon of Angel, but I think I've used it four entries in a row now. LOL. The guy who wants to take our current building manager's job has been doing nothing but pissing people off this week. He even caused another manager to have to call the big manage during his holiday break. Needless to say, he was very upset about that. All because he lies, avoids responsibility, and seems to communicate with people exclusively by being an asshole no matter what. Typical behavior expected of that type, TBH. I didn't trust that guy to start with He's done so many shady and shitty things since arriving and it's so jarring since he replaced a good manager who was really chill and friendly. I am pretty over doing any favors for him at this point. Last week he tried to convince me to work two weeks straight with the promise of "you'll get so much overtime". Yeah, no. I came in for New Years. I'll be getting time and a half for that. But fuck this two weeks straight shit. God, I remember working over twenty days straight that one time last year. I am not doing that again for them. Looking back over 2025, I accomplished even less than the year before. But I feel like I was mentally recovering most of the year anyway. And physically recovering. I'm still just in disbelief about how fast that last job went from generally alright to this place is going to kill me literally going to cause my death if I stay here in under thirty days. Haha, I know it's probably unlikely anything works this way, but if there's some version of me in some other universes out there, I'm pretty sure one of them died there. Like that day I got that serious injury. Man, that would've been a shit way to go out. I love how that wasn't even the final straw. But it really, really should've been. I think I was just hoping that somehow things would turn back to how they used to be. That just wasn't going to happen. Also, holy shit. This is the fifteenth entry. I actually kept up with this for more than one month. I was almost certain this would end up deleted before December ended. EDIT: Saw the stuff about LJ over on DW. I guess it's truly, finllay over. I need to give LJ one last look through to see if there's anything I need to save. Archive - Icons - Previous