Next - Archive - Icons - Previous 1/31/26 It finally snowed. The media hyped up that storm last week so much over here, even though the odds anything would happen in my area were low and absolutely nothing happened, as the data already predicted as the most likely outcome. Because they overhyped the fuck out of it and nothing happened, there actually wasn't much of a panic this week and now it's actually snowing. Stupid ass weather people trying to drive up numbers. Anyway, it's actually snow this time too and not ice. I'm glad it's happening on the weekend, so I don't have to go to work in that because people act stupid when there's snow. I doubt much of it will stick though, but it's still something as opposed to absolutely nothing last weekend. Last night, I rewatched the first LotR movie with my wife. It help up better than I expected, though some of the CG is definitely very dated looking now. My wife hasn't really seen the full trilogy. When we got to the end, she was like "they didn't even throw the ring in the fire!" and I'm like yeah, there's three movies. She didn't realize there were three movies. Haha, I guess we could do the second and third one over the weekend, space them out a bit. I forgot how long the not extended versions already are. The first movie is three hours long! It doesn't feel that way, but damn. You definitely have to set a bit of time aside to watch these films. But I think that people should do that more in general. What research has been coming out about short form content has all been pretty negative. I know at the end of last year, people were pushing for making "personal curriculums" (i.e. learning for fun consistently and regularly) and going "analog" more, which I think is good. But I don't know if anyone will actually stick with that or if they'll just pbuy stuff, pretend they're doing that, and make "content" about it for cash, as what happened with a lot of planner stuff, study content, dark academia shit, and the previous polyglot/renaissance man fad. No one actually did shit. They just made aesthetics and sold it. But IDK. At some point, I would think the emptiness of it all would eventually lead to people craving more. Perhaps I should make a list one day of "filling food", like a list of books, albums, movies, etc that actually leave your brain feeling "full". 1/28/26 The ice storm ended up being a bust. Nothing really happened here after all that hyping. People just bought up all the food and emergency supplies, which meant I had to buy my food early to make sure I had any food for the week. Customers have been especially dumb later. New all time favorite: "Is this an airport location?" An airport. IDK, do you see any planes? How the fuck do you not know if you're at an airport?! Also had a lady who tried to scan a QR code with her hand. I...even after I told her you use a phone for that, she just kept trying to use her hand and seemed confused about what phone I was referring to. This lady drove to our building by herself. I'm sorry, but it's time to take the keys. I encounter a lot of customers who tell me they are having a hard time reading some of the forms because they forgot their glasses and are practically blind without them...and they drove there. By themselves. There's no public transit that is near our building. They drove without their glasses and are so blind without them they basically can't read at all. I run into this so much, across every generation. What is wrong with these people? You have an accessibility aid for improving your sight! Why are you leaving it off your face?!! While driving?!! To a place to fill out forms?!! It's the same as old fucks who are like "sorry, I'm hard of hearing." That sucks, man. But did you know, we invented this cool thing called hearing aids? It makes you be able to hear better! They come in a wide range of prices and even a cheapo one would really improve your life! No? I'm just supposed to shout instead for you. Okay then. IDK, maybe carry some note cards on you to use in communication? Learn sign language? It'd be one thing if it was about money, but the people I encounter like this always drop loads of cash. They make enough to get hearing aids. It's not that they can't get one at that point, it's that they simply don't want to use one. Same as the weird glasses people. Like IDK man, try contacts? It's a lot harder to forget those at home because they're on your eyeballs. Sometimes, I wonder if its some pride/internalized ableism thing. Like if they are seen out with glasses or hearing aids, people can see they...um use regular things most people end up needing eventually anyway? It sounds stupid, but my dad is one of those people who really, really needs glasses. Only in the last year has he finally started wearing non-prescription reading glasses occasionally. He should be wearing prescription glasses in general, but he won't even go to the doctor. He says the doctor will "just try to sell him glasses even if there's nothing wrong with his eyes, it's a scam." He won't go to the dentist either because they'll "overselling" him on the work he needs done. All his teeth are rotted out. There are NO TEETH in his mouth that any dentist could save at this point. He needs dentures. I've told him this many time, and that he should get some implant ones because his dental insurance will cover them since the damage is so bad. He won't go. He also needs a hearing aid too. Won't get one. He has the money for all this stuff, pays top dollar for premium health insurance and never visits any doctors ever. IDGI. Another "funny" thing about my dad. He is terrified of aging. He's been crying that hell die any day now since I was five to try and soothe his brain about actually aging because dying "young and unexpectly" would be easier on his mind than getting wrinkley and weak. But he's old now. And it's really showing because he's refused to take care of himself. Everyone who gets old is gonna get wrinkles and become weaker, that's a given. But how quickly that happens is in part related to choices made earlier in life. He is desperately trying to look younger now, restore his hair, his skin, etc. He uses retinol now, which did improve some of the damage to his skin and he finally started using a small amount of cream on his face (a firming cream, but he was using nothing at all, so at least its something). But he never did anything his whole life and he won't make changes now. I told him smoking, excessive drinking, not wearing sunscreen all make his skin age faster. He says it's "too late now" to bother with now since it's "all over". So he wouldn't wear sunscreen before and he still wont wear sunscreen. His own father had melanoma (and also still refused to wear sunscreen after as well because "it's too late now"). Actually, several of my paternal family members have gotten skin cancer and they all just...continued to refuse sunscreen. Even at the beach, and they burn easy too. Intentionally letting themselves burn and increase their cancer risk. My dad would yell at me and my mom for wearing sunscreen at the beach and he's spent all of my adult life telling me how dumb it is I wear sunscreen as often as I do. I offered to get him asian sunscreen since they have better UV filters and they tend to be a thinner consistency, so for someone who doesn't like wearing them, they might be easier to deal with. Nope. He wants to look younger, have better skin, better teeth, won't do anything about it. He did look into getting plastic surgery though. LOL. It's really funny when you think about it. He was looking into getting a face lift and having some work on his eyes, but he won't get dentures. Man, you need your teeth to EAT WITH. WTF. The manager who I was about 98% certain was drinking at work got checked into rehab a couple of days ago. Well, that confirms that. You know someone's in it deep when they're getting to the point of drinking on the job at the start of the shift early in the morning. Some other bullshit's been going at work. So many dumb things. People are already freaking out about the next coming storm, but it looks like it's not supposed to really hit us either. Seems exhausting to me to always be worried about stuff that's not a threat. But if they're freaking out, I'm going to have to get food early again. Sigh. Oh, yesterday, I saw a kid beg his dad for a CD player. He had to be explained how to use it, but he really wanted it. Saw an adult buy a CD player too. The kid was about ten years old. I was pretty surprised. Haha, wouldn't that be something if the kids got less adddicted to brainrot stuff because trends are pushing retro and they discover...hey, actually some of this old shit is good...and it doesn't fuck up your brain! I'm being too hopeful, but one can dream. 1/19/26 YOU KNOW WHAT'S BULLSHIT? Today. Today is bullshit. Yesterday was also bullshit, but today is especially bullshit. I'm done with today. I thought things were going well finally and then, bam. BULLSHIT. Of course. I have a headache now. At least I got paid for MLK day. It's been some years since I've gotten to take the day off and get paid for it. But everything else? Bullshit. To the max. I am so tired right now. I was in such a good mood earlier, felt so productive. NOPE. DAY IS DONE. I did a daily draw today. I mostly do that for more of a mental focus than anything. Seven of Swords. I was like haha, it doesn't mean anything. It's just a card. WHY WAS THAT SO ACCURATE. I did draw an extra card for advice and got the Empress. Yeah, that pretty much made sense to. Why is this deck always like this. Me with all other decks: yeah, tarot's just for fun, it's wrong a lot, doesn't really mean anything. THIS PARTICULAR DECK: always right, every time. Dead on. Even for shit way out in advance. IDK if the imagery is just really hitting something with my subconscious pattern finding and it's making me spit out just the right information in a way that logically would make sense but not in a way I am easily able to see consciously, or what the fuck is going on with that. I remember when I was an atheist, tarot cards were my one "superstition" and I'm never not on that bullshit with this deck now that I'm no longer an atheist. I remember James Randi in a video talking about how even hardcore atheists have superstitions and they're bullshitting themselves if they say they don't, but that most superstitions are harmless anyway, so it's not a big deal you have them. You should just be aware that's what they are. Shit like that was why I was always at the JREF forums because the Dakwins crowd was always frothing at the mouth at anything vaguely supernatural like they were god damn acoyltes of Frollo. God, if atheist Frollo ain't an accurate description for Richard Dawkins. Dude was never a good scientist and always ridiculed in his field, but he published some shitty popsci and raging atheist books and the general public just ran with him being actually smart. It's always fun when people go I read the God Delusion and I can't believe Dawkins is so ~ problematic ~ these days. Bro, he's been saying the SAME SHIT for decades. That shit WAS IN that book. I ain't trusting no fuck who claimed him that being told there was a god he should believe in was a more traumatic experience than when he got molested by a priest and that priests molesting boys isn't "real" sexual assault anyway. Absolute piece of human garbage right there. Anyway, off-topic. Tarot cards are fun. They're not a big deal. And Dawkins is a bad person and has been at least since he became a public figure. Sometimes, I think about how Michio Kaku was a big popsci figure for a while even though he was already in loads of woo woo weird shit before that happened. (I'm talking REAL fucking weird shit. God, I am Juan...This is a joke for you, BB.) People really don't look deeply into anything. It's all vibes. Having a three day weekend was kind of nice. I don't wanna go back to work yet lol. But at least I only have to work for four days this week. I wonder what bullshit didn't get done over the weekend, as usual, that I'll need to clean up tomorrow. NGL, while our building manager is incompetent, he's at least nice and is never really on anyone's ass. I kinda wish our other manager, the one who's trying to take his job, would just like. Go somewhere else. Vanish. I can't stand him. He lies, backstabs people, is a creep, a bigot, and is constantly pissing off the customers for no reason. He goes out of his way to create conflict and spends the rest of his time worried about numbers. I want him and the district manager to just...IDK, move to some other district. The previous guy wasn't all that bad. I'd rather he just took back over. But it's whatever. I know I need to think of this job as temporary. It's just another step on the way to something else anyway. I need to let it go. 1/12/26 Funny one at work today. "You have to take us as walk-ins. We travelled 35 minutes all the way from (CITY)." "Ma'am, this is (CITY)." LMAO. The lies never end. People are so weird. Just be honest. Manager freaking out about hours. "They gave me even less hours to schedule everyone with next week!" Yeah, man, it's because there's a federal holiday next week, ya goof. We get paid for it. Chill out. Dude's really racist. I guess I shouldn't be surprised MLK day doesn't register as a real holiday in his head. He actually was trying to argue with me that it "doesn't count anymore" so I'll be working that day. Word from up above says no, I'm off and I'm getting paid. Racists are so stupid. So, you'd want less holidays celebrated so you'd get potentially less days off/less time and a half? Why? That actually makes everyone's life less enjoyable, including yours. So dumb. Also this is the ATL, man. Respect MLK. Ran out of the Tsubaki hair mask before the new one arrived. I should've ordered earlier, but oh well. I at least got one last use this week. Hoping my order arrives in the next week. I usually only use it once a week anyway. Going to enjoy the post-Tsubaki volume increase for the next several days lol. My wife said I looked like Jinu earlier. LOL. After I started using the Ichikami shampoo+conditioner, I got a little more volume and shine, but the Tsubaki stuff is on a whole other level. I tried them all out because I heard they were good for low porosity hair after I learned apparently that's what I have. My hair'd gotten pretty fucked from working that last job and being around all those chemicals and dust and who knows what else every day. I thought it might've been aging since I'm over 30, and I'm sure a little bit of it is, but given how my hair looks now that I don't work there and I've changed how I'm keeping up my hair, I'd say most of the changes really weren't age related. My skin looks a lot better after leaving there too. I started using skincare products daily when working there because my skin started looking so awful. I couldn't even use normal cleansers or soap to clean my face. I had to use an actual clay mask cleanser regularly because a day of work put so much grime deep into my pores I would look dirty even after washing my face or taking a shower. It was so gross. I'd wash and wash and my skin looked like it was covered in tiny black dots afterwards. I'm getting gross out just thinking about it. I don't need to do that anymore. I can use regular cleansers or soaps to wash my face. But my skin does seem to now be dryer than in my twenties. In my twenties, I just used soap and sunscreen and maybe rose water if I had some acne. Working at that place, I got so much more acne too, my skin was super dry and nasty and dull. I've got things mostly fixed now, but yeah that dryness did seem to be a mix of work environment and age. I'm less dry now that I've left. I can go a few days without moisturizer and still be okay, but it's better off if I do it every day. I feel like I was aging rapidly in that place and now that I'm not working there, it's like I've de-aged some. And it turns out I'm one of those people who yes, actually, needs to do the multi-step layered bullshit. I learned that light moisturizers by themselves aren't enough, but heavy ones give me acne. Using lighter stuff in layers gets me the right about of moisture without the acne issue. I don't know why, but whatever, it's what's working. Still sick. I've been taking Dayquil all day. That elderberry kind. So much easier to take, because it's less disgusting. I went back to the regular version a while ago and I just could not. That shit is so nasty. Elderberry it is. It costs more than the regular one around here. I don't care. I'm ponying up the extra dollars just for the elderberry. 1/11/26 Finally got a new duvet cover. The old one has been looking pretty ragged for a while now and had a few holes in it that were much too big for me to feel like patching was a good option anymore. I'm still going to keep it around for using as scrap fabric for stuff. Plenty of it is still useable and it's linen. I don't really want it to go to waste. Sneaking Pimps cassette arrived yesterday. I got lucky on an auction where no one else bothered bidding on it. Unfortunately, Becoming X is one of those things a lot of people decided is "high value" despite being a mass produced album. Same with Hounds of Love. I can't get that damn album that I used to have on CD ages ago because it's so expensive and there's loads of fake versions because of stupid Stranger Things fans. I'd been neutral on that show, but even since they used "Running Up that Hill" and everyone decided a song about gender roles was now suddenly secretly always about mental health to get people to watch a stupid Netflix show, I've hated it. I don't care what the show is about. Fuck off to the entire fandom. I saw a lot of people were pissed at the ending. Good. Maybe I can buy Hounds of Love for a reasonable price again, and not because I like that song. It's legit one of her weaker, if not weakest singles, but because I want other songs on that album. That might be my least favorite song on that album and that was an "you can listen to the whole album" kind of album. Feels like liking Enya and saying your favorite song is "Orinoco Flow" or "Only Time" or like Tori Amos and saying your favorite is "Cornflake Girl". Anyway. Not sure why Becoming X was one of those expense albums though. I keep wondering if I should have a page for cassettes or not. I like the idea in theory, but people on here are so performantive about the things they supposedly like that the idea kind of also makes me sick. IDK. Pretty happy with the $12 used cassette player I got. The new, modern one I have is total ass. There's legal reasons why all the new ones for "retro" appeal are actually garbage, but I don't think for portable playing I'll need much more beyond the $12 used one I got. Maybe I might get another old one just as a backup. I still plan to get a tape deck at some point, but I doubt I'll get a super expensive one either. People on Reddit are so cringe. You need an original walkman, unopened, at max price with max priced headphones to TRULY appreciate the ~art~. Man, shut up. No one back in the day was hunting down the most specialist player and headphone set unless they were a rich brat or worked in the industry. The average person had a cheapo one, and the average sound experience from that era is on those cheapo ones. I'm convinced most subreddits are a mix of bots selling expensive shit and rich kids trying desperately to gentrify hobbies. Nothing else makes sense. I've got a cheapo Lennox Sound player and it sounds decent enough. I need to get some more flacs to put on the ipod touch. Been sick all week. Barely ate in the last two days. I'm so tired. 1/6/26 Called out today. I don't know how I made it through yesterday. I was up high trying to get something down and suddenly felt really dizzy. Then boom, fever and my whole body aching. It was like I lost all my strength at once. I had to come down and sit for a bit. I sat on and off throughout the shift. Thought I'd be fine for today, but come morning, I'm worse. I slept for a while during the day because I felt so weak and dizzy. When I woke up, I had a fever. Still have a fever. Can't concentrate. I tried writing for a bit. Don't want to sleep all day, because I don't want to be drowsy tomorrow too. We have some corporate visit tomorrow. Gross. Had a rude customer yesterday who camped out at my work zone while I was on break. "Signed in" on some of my papers that are not a sign in sheet. And got mad when I took someone else before her because "they were walk-ins too", but they were walk-ins with their documents filled out and she wanted me to sit there and fill out the documents with her. Normally, I don't even take walk-ins like that unless there's some special reason they can't do it themselves. I told her to fill out the information while I was seeing the other people. She was adamant she should get priority. And I'm like no, you're a walk-in and you don't have any paperwork. I technically don't even have to take you at all. It's fully up to me. She knew this because she was sent over from one of our other locations that has a strict no walk-in policy and was warned we may not take her at our location either. How fucking hard is it to just fill out some forms and schedule an appointment? In the end, I eventually got to her and then she revealed this wasn't even for her, it was for a worker of hers who didn't speak any English and she'd need to walk him through it to then tell me the information. And I'm like even more like why didn't you just do all this shit ahead of time? She also claimed we helped her do this form two days ago and did it "all for her last time". I'm currently the only person in our building who can process this stuff. I did not work two days ago. No one at the other locations works those hours either. She then claimed the other building did it for her, the one that does not allow walk-ins. So, just lying. I don't know where she really went, if she even had it done, but I'd never seen the woman before so it definitely wasn't at our building. Reminds me of that lady who claimed she had an appointment when she was really a walk-in. I have a list of my appointments for the day. I don't know why customers think I won't know they're not scheduled for an appointment. Same with the weird first come, first serve people vs appointments. "I was here first!" Yeah, and they have an appointment at this time. You getting here before them is irrelevant. You're not on the list. How do these people function at doctors and dental appointments? Yesterday, I stayed a little late even though I felt like shit to finish up something for another area since everyone was behind. As I was leaving, someone came in for an appointment twenty minutes late and was like "why can't I be seen". Cause I'm closed. Bye. I also hate these people: my appointment was tomorrow, but I was in town, so I figured I'd just go ahead and do it today. How about you just come during your appointment? Why is this so difficult for people? I've had a migraine for a solid twenty-four hours now and still going. Which is great with everything else my body is feeling right now. I've been getting those lovely cold chills on and off too since this morning. Really great time. Ugh. I've been downing liquids and some Emergen-C packets. I did eat a backed potato for breakfast and had some chicken for dinner. But I haven't really been wanting to eat anything. I should probably go into work tomorrow with a mask on. I hate wearing masks. But I'm pretty sure I'll still be contageous and I can't really miss tomorrow either. That's America for you. I do have the sick leave for it, but I can't call out during the corporate visit. I hope these symptoms don't last long. On the plus side, I don't have a stuffy nose. Usually, when I get all these other symptoms, it's that or a sore throat, or both. Just some light coughing every now and then. It's mostly the fever and the body aches and chills, and just general tiredness/drowsiness. My sense of taste is a little off though. But that's not really a big deal. I'm so tired. I don't want to go back to sleep already. 1/4/26 Got a better look at what the flippers were putting in across the street. They are, in fact, putting in shittier windows than the ones that were already there. They didn't get very far in the progress. Took most of the day to replace one window. They also seem to have bought two that are not the correct size to go anywhere on that house. Brilliant. Now, they could have paid a team to do all this measuring and getting it installed quickly. But the thing I've learned about flippers is they try to change houses by using as little money possible for the tasks their attempting to accomplish. So, they have a couple of people who are clearly not professionals and themselves trying to DIY this shit. Maybe they'll manage to get one more in today, LOL. For a while, and I don't know how this happened, but they had a bunch of cables exposed that would normally be buried underground and they just left that shit out and exposed for months. They were driving over the cables with their cars too. That's if these are the same set of flippers. I don't recognize the cars or people, so I think we are indeed on flipper set number three. That poor roof is so fucked. And there in sums up the flipper mindset. Changing out good windows with shittier windows while the roof is falling apart and cutting down flowering bushes and flowering trees to improve "curb appeal". I'm half convinced this is all some effort to, aside from shifting houses and back forth between rich people as "assets", for the "poors" to have to live in shittier houses by taking houses that were already not well kept and somehow renovating them to eb even worse than before,. It's like they've actively aged these houses an additional ten to twenty years of damages in the span of months or even one month. Flipping is the enshittification of housing. They want us living in shitholes and to make us pay top dollar for it until they can make us homeless and then arrest us to be slave labor. What a system. Their house is the biggest dull point on the street. It was so noticeable during Christmas because everyone else had lights out except this one house. Total darkness. The grass is dead and covered with straw. In Spring, everyone else has flowers. Except this house now. Even just losing those bushes up front makes it look so weird next to everyone else's houses. It's like the house itself is dead. A corpse sitting in the middle of everything. 1/3/26 Flippers across the street doing more work on the house. I expect it will, despite them already making it super ugly, somehow get even uglier. I'm not even sure if this is the same set of flippers. The house has gone through at least two flippers now without a real person living in it. I was sure they had left for a while now. So maybe this is a third owner flipping. They're changing out the windows now even though nothing was wrong with the windows before. The roof is totally fucked though and the siding, but they just left that unfixed. It's so bad you can tell how fucked it looks from the street. And is more obvious than before because one of their ways of "fixing" the property was cutting down every single tree, bush, and flower growing on the property and covering the yard with pine straw. They even cut into other people's property. I'm across the street, and one of their guys cut into one of our trees and killed a few branches on it and a portion of the grass and moss in our yard. They at some point was trying to go into one of the other neighbors yard to cut down an old tree about ten feet into that person's yard and only stopped when the neighbor went outside like "what the fuck are you doing in my yard?". Batshit stuff. I made a note of that company. Completely unethical shit. Some people will do anything for money. But I've heard of loads of people having issues with these tree removal companies straight up cutting trees either intentionally or accidentally in other people's yards outside of their actual client so much I don't trust any of those companies at all. But also, the absolute audacity of flippers to think they not only get to make their little plot ugly as fuck, but that they should have the right to fuck up adjacent lots too. Wendigo behavior, all of it. The first set of flippers put some shit in the house that absolutely fucked their foundation. (They did it to my home too, it was the same set of flippers fucking up multiple houses in the area with the same ugly ass design that also damaged the buildings.) It's so funny they do this shit. It's because they don't actually have 1) any design taste 2) brains to make sure things work 3) any concern over that anyway because these aren't spaces they see humans living in (either because they all intend to sell to other flippers passing property back and forth but also if a person finally lands in it as an owner or a renter, that's one of the poors, so not a "real" human anyway). The last house I was in had mold under all of the walls. They just painted over it with the thinnest, shittiest paint imagineable and the paint cracked and peeled immediately after a week of being there. It was originally owned by a Russian flipper who had never even once lived in the US who sold the property while we were still renting to a US rental company that gradually bought up nearly every house available in the area and increased rent every single year. When we left, we got a fee for repainting. In that neighborhood, the house right next to ours had a tree growing through the foundation that was also fucking up the plumbing and the company said it was the renter's responsibility to fix that. UM. WHAT. Why did you rent out a property with a TREE GROWING THROUGH IT?! That house had people constantly moving in and out when they'd eventually find out about what was going on under the house. Eventually, the roots busted through into places that were actually more visible to see and they actually paid to have some parts (but not all of it) fixed because that renter reported them to the city. I really need celebrity worshippers to understand those people do not think of you as human. You are the level of a rat to rich people. All the charity stuff is PR to avoid getting the system changed (and to move money around covertly). You have to be sub-human to rich people. If you weren't, it wouldn't be so easy to make "tough" business decisions that cost lives daily. We're nothing but numbers to be forgotten to them. They kill the planet by making loads of broken junk and inefficient shit, degrade valuable things as they pass them back and forth, and are quite comfortable convincing everyone at the collective bottom they should be excited about a portion of the bottom rung getting punished for not being rich because one day, you too could be rich or be noticed by a rich person. I wish all the dipshits would fuck off to their little bunkers. Maybe we could get things built back up again. Though with how people have been intentionally dumbed down, that'll be a bit of struggle at first. But there's enough people with big brains we'd make it through. They'd be dead in their bunkers within a year. I'll never forget one of my college history teachers saying, "We ask so little of our rich people" when he was discussing what ancient rich people had to do to not get their heads chopped off by the masses. Our current crop of rich people are so weird. Definitely makes me think of the French royalty before the revolution. Just weird ass, dumfucks fucking up everything. LOL I'm still not over learning about one of those weird kings being offended by people needing to pee but also getting offended if his guests didn't have a massive feast every time they hung out with him. People were just covertly pissing places whenever the king wasn't looking. Whole place smelled like piss and rotting meat and loud perfume and like opium or some shit. But hey everything was shiny. When you get to that level of absurdity of wealth, you get to this absurdity of person. Broken brains. Fully wendigo-minded at that point. There's nothing left but goop in there. People ask why do rich women get that ugly plastic surgery look because they look like shit afterwards. They don't care if they're beautiful. They care that everyone can see their faces look like that because of all the money they spent doing that. It's just to show off they're one of the rich people and to look like they're part of the club if they're not quite rich enough yet. I saw one of these women recently. She came in for an appointment. My god is that Mar-a-lago face absolutely far more terrifying in person. It was like I was talking to an actual alien because the uncanny value reaction was so strong. But that gets those women a place in rich land. The rich men don't care if their wives are pretty. Never have. That's what mistresses, exploited staff, escorts, and trafficking victims are for. Their wives are for other purposes. I was going to post something about CDs and cassettes today. I think I'll do that tomorrow. Maybe I'll edit this later with some other thoughts. 1/1/26 It's a new year. I moved the December entries to the archive section. It doesn't feel like a new year yet. Which is weird for me. Usually, most years already feel like the next year a month or two before it starts. This time, it feels like 2025 is still dragging on into 2026. Not liking that. I need to stop using this icon of Angel, but I think I've used it four entries in a row now. LOL. The guy who wants to take our current building manager's job has been doing nothing but pissing people off this week. He even caused another manager to have to call the big manage during his holiday break. Needless to say, he was very upset about that. All because he lies, avoids responsibility, and seems to communicate with people exclusively by being an asshole no matter what. Typical behavior expected of that type, TBH. I didn't trust that guy to start with He's done so many shady and shitty things since arriving and it's so jarring since he replaced a good manager who was really chill and friendly. I am pretty over doing any favors for him at this point. Last week he tried to convince me to work two weeks straight with the promise of "you'll get so much overtime". Yeah, no. I came in for New Years. I'll be getting time and a half for that. But fuck this two weeks straight shit. God, I remember working over twenty days straight that one time last year. I am not doing that again for them. Looking back over 2025, I accomplished even less than the year before. But I feel like I was mentally recovering most of the year anyway. And physically recovering. I'm still just in disbelief about how fast that last job went from generally alright to this place is going to kill me literally going to cause my death if I stay here in under thirty days. Haha, I know it's probably unlikely anything works this way, but if there's some version of me in some other universes out there, I'm pretty sure one of them died there. Like that day I got that serious injury. Man, that would've been a shit way to go out. I love how that wasn't even the final straw. But it really, really should've been. I think I was just hoping that somehow things would turn back to how they used to be. That just wasn't going to happen. Also, holy shit. This is the fifteenth entry. I actually kept up with this for more than one month. I was almost certain this would end up deleted before December ended. EDIT: Saw the stuff about LJ over on DW. I guess it's truly, finllay over. I need to give LJ one last look through to see if there's anything I need to save. Next - Archive - Icons - Previous